Officially a Student.

Officially back to college life two weeks ago, Im so sad to say that my college life is gonna be real tough this time. Last time I was only one year older than most of my classmates, but this time Im joining an even younger batch that all of them are two to three years younger than me. I have to know my classmates all from the beginning again, and this is really an awful thing for me since Im kinda unsociable and I usually will not take the first step to talk to a stranger unless I have to. So this is already the 2nd week of my classes but I only talked to 3 of my classmates, worst still we only said a few words.

Seriously, it's really a big matter for me to get closer with them because of the differences in our topics and thoughts. When there are comparisons, you will see the differences. Though Im just two or three years older than them, but there is really big gap between us. What they think and what they do at their age of 18 or 19 I had already experienced few years back, and they somehow make me realized that I had grown from my past. For an example, students at their age will always think to have some entertainments like cheong K, shopping or even clubbing after class, which students who has already come to my age will rather stay home and spend more efforts on assignments. So now you understand the differences? What they want now is totally not what I want, this is the big gap that I meant. 

Well, this is not a bad thing afterall, this might be a good chance for me to learn something new. Just because I temporarily have not make any friends in the class yet, I have to be more focus during lecture so that I won't miss out any single thing from the lecturer because I have no one to refer while doing my assignment. Independent, and solve my own problems, this is what I have learned. Never feel depressed when everything seems to be so wrong, what doesn't kill you will only makes you stronger.

This is the very first artwork from me after one and a half year. This is what we called Scanogram, which means capture the objects you want with a scanner, it's one of the photography method. I know some of you might be wondering why I always come out with this kind of bloody idea even in my assignment, do I have mental problem? Well, maybe yes or maybe no. What I want to say is, when I look at my scanner, I just have the strong feeling to put my hand on it and scan, instead of scanning a pale hand, I have another strong feeling to make it bloody. I know it sounds so wrong, but this is really what I thought at that moment.

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Imagine you were to be closed in a dark room alone, the only light source you have is the weak light from your monitor screen, and you have everything bloody in front of you even your hands are full of blood. Horrible right? But Im kinda enjoyed to feel like a killer, the feeling is somehow stronger when I was washing off the 'blood' from the knives and screwdrivers. I think Im crazy hahaha!

Okay, let's stop all this bloody things here, hope you enjoy reading my post. =D